Dear Mommy and Daddy,
I cried during our phone conversation,
But you didn't know about it.
Dear Mommy and Daddy,
I am tired of endless marriage conversation,
I am very sorry to dissapoint you again.
But what can i do?
I once lost my love and hope of marriage.
I have not yet found any man that I want to spend the rest of my life with.
And no man has offered themselves to marry me.
Almost all of them run away because they are afraid that I will ask them to marry me.
This has become an endless vicious circle.
The end becomes the beginning.
Mommy and Daddy,
How could you say that I am not following God's rules by not wanting to get married?
I do.
I never have the intention to disobey you, not to mention God.
Please, please stop torturing me.
Stop blaming my self for being intelligent enough,
for being beautiful enough,
for being weird enough,
that the fact that men do not want to marry me because they are scared,
becomes my fault.
Once a man says that the biggest son that God hates is when a person is not happy with their life.
That means that person is ungrateful with what has been given.
Well Mom and Dad,
I am not happy.
I am not going to blame you.
I have control over my happiness.
If I am unhappy, that is solely because of me and me alone.
But sometimes you guys triggers it.
God, please help me.
Please send a man that I love and loves me back and is willing to marry me.
A man that my family would also loves.
I am tired God.
This way everyone will be happy.
I dont want to hurt anyone.
