Love of My Life

God, it's been two years since our relationship ended. Yet, I can't lose this feeling for you. I keep on longing to be yours. And for you to be mine. So many prayers I've chanted to release this feeling.

I'm miserable. I'm pathetic. Underneath my skin, I'm vulnerable.

And you're getting married to someone else. Now, I even have to lose the hope of being with you.

I wish I've never loved you, I pray that God takes away this feeling that I've felt. Because I am living in an illusion. I have to be awaken. You don't love me anymore. You prefer to spend the rest of your life with someone else. You will take a vow together, and you always keep your promise.

And I will go on with my life. I will continue my pretentious way of living-pretending to have forgotten about you.

I will go on having relationships, without any of those feelings that I felt when we were together. I will break more hearts, play more mind games, be in more fancy dinners and trips.

And my heart will only belong to you.

You. A mid tall, medium sized, fair looking man. Who would have thought that it's you that would sweep me from my feet?

I can't take any more of this miserable years. Help me.Release me. Kill me. Anything. Just take this away from me.